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I see today with a newsprint fray, my night is colored headache gray. Don’t wake me with so much, daysleeper. I cried the other night; I can’t even say why. Fluorescent, flat caffeine lights; its furious balancing. I’m the screen, the blinding light. I’m the screen, I work at night. The ocean machine is set to 9. I’ll squeeze into Heaven and valentine.
My bed is pulling me, gravity; daysleeper.
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[14 Feb 2009|04:31pm]
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iruagalkdjfa [18 Sep 2008|11:46pm]
[ mood | XD ]
[ music | Edward Scissorhands. ]

Sooo.. while I could very easily write all about how there was a gas leak in my bedroom and I'm simply lucky to be alive, I'd much rather post about Placebo and how BRIAN MOLKO HAS LONG HAIR AGAIN ADIJFEWHFASKLJDFAW

ta-da )

Basically I'm just clinging to my extra-bright monitor and making strange noises of glee. He'd better not cut it before they do a proper photoshoot, the little prick.

HEEHEE!
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Apparently America is just too accepting. Who knew? [19 May 2008|10:21pm]
All right, I have a million and two things that could be used for an update, but this one stands out.

So, there was this "incident" sort of thing at work that a regular customer felt completely compelled to write about in his ohsoimportant Yahoo group. He says he was reading in the paper about an actor who recently came out of the closet and, according to him, he said under his breath that it was a shame. And then, he says, the Caribou worker immediately ceased making a drink, ran over to him and shouted THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH GAY PEOPLE!! He goes on to write that there's a virus in our nation--and that virus is TOLERANCE.

Can I get a "..............."? Yeah, thanks. So here's what really happened.

It was me he's talking about. And yeah, he was reading the paper and, first of all, if I'm making a drink and he's muttering under his breath, no fucking way can I possibly hear him. But I wasn't making a drink. And when he did make his dumbass comment, I said, in a cutesy god damned voice, "What's wrong with gay people? There's nothing wrong with gay people.. " I didn't shout. I wasn't righteous, even though I very well could have been. I said it so sickeningly sweetly that it nearly turned my own stomach.

This guy, Jacque, mooches free shit for his kids all the time and manages to mention that he's Canadian every time he comes in, which is just about every day.. except for lately. So we were all wondering if, you know, he's really pissed off or if someone said something else to him, and did I mention he's a minister or some shit? Anyway, it turns out that Jacque the Canadian is in the hospital due to a brain aneurysm.

Karma's a bitch, yeah?
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[12 May 2008|02:23am]
Rufus Wainwright e-mailed me yesterday. His message included a grammatical slip, excessive use of punctuation and an obsession with Hayden Christensen that made me cringe.

I don't know. I was perturbed.
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All hail the red knight! [20 Mar 2008|01:03am]
Whoa, man. My stepdad treated the family to Medieval Times last night and it was such a god damned hoot. If you ever get the opportunity to go, go!! It's corny, sure, but it really is just so much fun. Also, if you're of drinking age, I suggest you treat yourself to a little treat labeled The Executioner. I had a couple of them myself. Tastes like a lollipop. Delish. Oho, and seats are assigned by colors and you have your very own color-coded knight to cheer for, as well as an enemy knight to boo. The chick behind us was pretty.. plastered, and kept shouting "YOU SUUUUCK! SUCK IT!" Fucking hilarious. But, since my stepdad's a millionaire and all, we got front-row seating. Our knight was, I must admit, fucking gorgeous with his long flowing hair and sparkling brown eyes. Winning smile as well. He gave me this ribbon (via the end of his lance LMFAO) with Queen of Beauty and Love or some shit printed on it. So I wrapped it around my head Bret Michaels' style, and when he came galloping back and saw me--cracked up. Tossed his head back and bared his adam's apple. Oh, the vanity. But really, everyone should have the experience at least once.
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!!!!! [17 Mar 2008|11:39pm]
So last night I had basically given up on trying to see Eddie because.. I really need my money for Disneyworld and with just one last paycheck between now and then, not to mention rent and car payment, and after taking a look at ticket prices, I just can't afford it right now.

But tonight, as I wheezed and woed about it at my mom's house, my stepdad offered to pay. "Call it an early Christmas present." Actually, I'd consider it a late Christmas present, as I sat in the freezing winter cold for four hours for YOUR kids' fucking Wii and received all of.. a hoodie from my mother and a crap necklace (which I can't find, but it doesn't really matter because I rarely wear necklaces anyway). But hell, I took him up on his offer and will pay him back after I return from the world of Disney. Therefore:

May 1st 2008--Eleventh Row, Orchestra Seating

AHAHAHAHA! IAMSOFUCKINGEXCITED. My god, my life is just god damned peachy lately. I'm trying not to let myself worry about how it's all going to fall apart.

And yes, the very next day I'll be flying to Michigan and will be verrah verrah tired, yet euphoric (I imagine). Today I finally spent the Barnes & Noble giftcard I received for Christmas on Chuck Palahniuk. Fight Club, even if I have seen the movie enough times to write the book myself, and Diary. Together, they cost me all of $4.30. Rahahaha. I'm just about finished with Fight Club, and I'll more than enough time to finish it and start on Diary tomorrow on the way to MEDIEVAL TIMES. I'm near smothered by things to look forward to, and fucking loving and embracing every second of it.
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Sweet. [13 Mar 2008|12:06am]
As much grief as my family has given me in the past (and will surely give me in the future--ah, the neverending cycle), I really love them. They crack me up. This is an e-mail my stepmom sent today:
Hi. I'm glad you came up over the weekend. I just hope you don't get sick. Guess who is in Winchester performing for 3 nights this week? Bret Michaels! He's at Sweet Carolines. I saw a clip from last night's show on the local news. If I had known before all were sold out I would have gone and checked out the "hair" situation. How funny that he's here for his birthday on Thursday. His life must really be taking a dive.

Also, I saw on Ticketmaster that your other boyfriend, Eddie Izzard is at DAR Constitution Hall on May 2. Tickets are $50 though. I don't know for sure where that is, only in DC. Didn't know if you were interested or not. I think tickets go on sale Friday.

Take care and have a good week.

Love,
Mom
Haha! My boyfriend, Eddie Izzard! I call everyone I'm.. obsessed with my boyfriend. Except.. strangely enough, Brian Molko. He's more my piece on the side. What really made me actually laugh out loud was, His life must really be taking a dive. Snort! Too bad we couldn't get tickets and see him. Man, that would've been a hoot. As for Eddie.. well, that's hard to resist. I'll have to recruit a few peeps to accompany me.

On a sidenote, I should be asleep right now. I had to be up at 4am to open shop and I also seem to be rapidly developing the same illness my stepmom came down with the day before my visit. I knew I was smoking too much anyway, and this morning I had that nasty unwanted presence in my throat. Now the feeling's still there, my nose is alternating between congestion and running and I keep sneezing (but who am I kidding--sneezing's fun!). Hopefully I'll be able to fight this off before it fully develops. I hope it at least disappears before I hit Disneyworld in a couple weeks. I cannot wait to be basking in the sun in Florida. Fuck. Yes.

I met up with my friend Megan on Monday night at her favorite bar. Poor woman has had a terrible run of bad luck. Her exhusband, the father of her children, died shortly before their daughter's wedding last year. Now her dear dog has died, and her brand new car caught on fire. I could tell that she was feeling down, but I tried to reassure her that these things happen--a lot of bad shit all at once, and then it tends to let off for a while. Or that's been my experience, anyhow, but I do know how long the days stretch when it feels like everything's going wrong. I really need to keep in touch better.

I need to get in touch with my dad, too, I guess. I haven't seen nor talked to him since.. I think it must have been the fall. I neglected to call him on his birthday, and he didn't call me for mine either, but that was expected. It doesn't hurt anymore, at least. I'm grateful for that much. There's very little pain in my life these days. Depression seems more and more a thing of the past, and when it does surface, it's only for a few hours.. maybe a night. My mood is pretty easily altered, which is both a blessing and a curse. But I find focusing on the good to be quite beneficial and not such a hard task, either.

And finally, I'm really, really itching for another fucking tattoo. I just don't know what it'll be. I also want to get my stomach pierced, right above my navel piercing. But that'll hurt like a motherfucker, and I'd rather go for the ink, first.
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[22 Feb 2008|04:12pm]

Happy Birthday, [info]jeeves!!

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[03 Feb 2008|02:02am]
[ mood | illllllll. ]

Oh my god, I'm so fucking.. sick. Even though I associate 'sick' as coughing up a lung and feeling congested, and I have neither of those. A chronic headache, nausea, and loss of balance. Even vomited a few times, and that's just great. I tried to go to work yesterday, but I kept fucking up orders, so I asked my manager if she'd come in and cover my shift. I apologized, because I knew it was one of her few days off, but she was still miffed. She thought it was just because I hadn't slept, even though I'd actually gotten more sleep than usual. She told me to get more rest, because she wouldn't cover for me tonight. So.. I accidentally woke up today at the same time I was supposed to be at work. Haha. I called in and apologized, said I'd be there as soon as possible. Taking a shower changed my mind about that. My balance was worse, my nausea was worse. I hadn't vomited yesterday, but I certainly did today. Can't even hold water down, it seems, and that's weird. I'm pretty hungry, but if water's going to turn my stomach, I shudder to think of what will happen if I try anything remotely solid. Also, tomorrow is my mom's birthday, and everyone's going to go over to Grandma's for a little birthday/superbowl party. If I still feel this bad, I won't be able to go. :[ Not to mention, I haven't gotten anything for her, yet. Geez.
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Oh, the early morning pondering. [16 Jan 2008|05:18am]
[ mood | thoroughly contemplative. ]
[ music | Gone With The Sin, if I could stop pausing it. ]

I've been a barista for roughly two years as a whole, but I'm still not sure why when coffee sits, it becomes much colder than room temperature. What is this phenomenon?
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[14 Jan 2008|09:47pm]
Okay, so multiple posts with little time between them are annoying, but I'm just so excited about finding my next tattoo, I cannot contain myself! It's been on my userinfo for a little while, but what do you think of this )

That, and, haha.. I'm seriously considering getting Ilmatyynyalukseni on täynnä ankeriaita just under a collarbone for the hell of it. If only for amusement when everyone asks for the translation (My hovercraft is full of eels). And I guess I need a genuinely stupid tattoo. Why the hell not.

HAHAHAAA!
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[14 Jan 2008|08:19pm]
[ mood | good! ]
[ music | One Last Time. ]

I think I'm starting to get the hang of this site. It took me forever to figure out how to view my friends page without having to actually go into my journal. Oi. I do wish the default font wasn't Arial, though. It hurts my eyes. And that the pages weren't gray. Again--eyes. Oh wellz. Beggars cannot be choosers.

I realized last night as I sipped my breve and opened a tin of Vienna sausages (my pathetic typical meal) that I'm both dehydrating and starving myself. I need to remedy this. I only seem to have a real meal when I'm home for dinner, and since we usually eat at six and I'm glued to the night shift, that narrows my chances of dinner down to days I have off. Really, I just need to stop being lazy. Mike and Jo leave me a plate in the fridge most of the time, but I just don't feel like washing the dish. Haha. I'm ridiculous.

Meanwhile, I'm in the mood for a survey. So thank you, [info]adamkesher, for posting this one. I'm not usually so bored, either.

A lot of trivial information, as per usual. )
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[13 Jan 2008|07:34am]
It's so beautiful outside. Chilly, but not brisk. I despise brisk weather. It's clear enough that I can see farther than usual. The scenery is reminiscent of dear Vancouver, with its beautiful sky and mountains and trees, lights of the ski resorts ever twinkling through them through the night. A layer of frost covers all, everything under its touch a few hues paler. Even my first exhale of poison curled as majestically into the morning air as the chimneys of scattered houses. My God, may the rest of the day be as gorgeous as this moment.
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[09 Dec 2007|12:34am]
Open arms to open minds.
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